Teaching For The First Time
Okay, I admit, it was rather strenuous. I know before this, deep down, I was always downplaying the immense energy required to do proper crowd control in a classroom, thinking rather naively, that students crave knowledge. (As I have accustomed myself too ever since university.)
But perhaps the reality is, we all want different things, and for some, being locked into a class with a teacher is very stifling. The problem with organised education is that it’s very difficult to please everybody. I suppose the balance of having a fun and enjoyable learning environment plus being super effective is indeed as razor thin as a strand of hair.
Anyway, I expanded quite a lot of energy on various administrative tasks that range from lesson preparation, technical trouble shooting, worrying about structures and just trying to teach. It was definitely eye opening, having no formal training whatsoever, and not having that much time to prepare, but maybe tomorrow I will be better.
So, I’m physically drained, but the other parts of me are rather lifted. It’s nice to be working again, applying myself in a productive fashion. I only hope it’s not a short lived thing, but that I can perhaps make a career out of doing something useful with my life.
Oh well, I just wrote in here so that one day I can look back on all this.