Limits
A pregnant pause. This screen has been left blank for about three hours ever since I switched my laptop on, after a pretty long, but epic day.
I don’t know if it’s because I can’t find the words, or if it’s because my left arm is still in a cast, but for now, the words aren’t really flowing. But that’s always the problem isn’t it? Every time I live, and I come face to face with a blank canvas, I feel as if I’ve given my all, and still, yet this great, empty screen, demands more from me.
But the last few days have gone by in a blur for me. After sending Kairen off on Thursday, and I finally made it home at about midnight, I sat down to write a post commenting on some things that had been going on in Singapore’s music scene. I’m glad it’s been receiving traction. It feels to have written something that resonates with an audience you’ve been trying to reach out to. But it’s very draining, to either write at the level regularly, or to have the discipline to do it daily. But I suppose once my arm recovers, I’ll look at ways I can find an audience for Singularity Industries.
I suppose it also calls into question, how else I want to run my online assets. I’ve been thinking of starting another blog, one that isn’t so serious, but focuses more on my geeky tendencies, and actually e a repository of my version of cool. I already have a title and tag line for it, but I’ll keep it secret for now.. because I’m going to launch it soon. I just hope I can keep up.
And then there suddenly has been an influx of gigs for Leeson, so that’s a good thing, and Shelves will be recording pretty soon. Plus I’m entertaining thoughts of another musical project.. and school is starting in September.. so there are many things to look forward to. It’s almost like, the past ten months that I’d been quiet for, never happened. I got the rest I needed, and things are picking up again. God is good in that way. In some ways, I feel I’ve drawn closer to him, or rather he’s drawn closer to me, and there are certain stress fractures I see in our relationship, mainly because of my own doing.. but I suppose at the end of the day, I just want to do the right thing.
And so here I am, Sunday, at three in the morning still blogging, even after an epic Saturday. There was a lot of fun, I loved the company I was with, good people, good fun, good talks, good art, good music. days like these are pretty rare, when things work out, parking lots found, good food, absolute steals from the music shop.. let’s just take our respite when it comes.
And with that, I suppose I will fall asleep after reading some pages from a book I borrowed.